fuck you, 2006

Sunday, December 31, 2006

10.54pm
was talking with waileong... he's not even going to stay up till 0000... /salute

the best thing about 2006 is that it's almost over.. hurrah. i'd go to sleep now too, but... nah. i'll be awake at midnight. BUT i have every intention to let it go by without a notice.
fresh start? new chapter of life? the calender is a handy way of keeping pace, as it were, but it's the events, rather than a simple date, that actually means something to me kthx. the 'fresh start' happened fifteen days ago, and my life is well on its way in a new direction.

resolutions? right, since when have i been known to proactively improve myself...

when i next look at the clock, it will be a new day of a new year.
2007, i know you're going to be shit too. cheers.

oh, crud

3.45pm
i've come to realise: i want to wow
i've said it, and condemned myself. but i don't want to play my 60's. they can languish for a bit till BC comes out.. i want to start new characters!!!!!!!!!! every once in awhile i take out my old games and give them a spin... i played little fighter 2 today, lol. i also played some starcraft, but... i guess hardcore players would be disgusted with me. i don't play it as a game, i play it as a toy. i turn on cheats and create little scenarios. eg: create a map with a shitload of minerals, play protoss, mind control an SCV and a Drone, and get 600 gathering units (200 from each race), and send them out in a humongous gathering zerg. i had fun, i don't care what you think, lol.

anyway, ff12 lasts only for so long. the story is derailing really quickly. i've abandoned my usual rpg ideal of levelling all the characters available together, and now i'm just using my core team. so half my characters and eleven+ levels higher.

i think i'll play keyboard stepmania now, lol

oh noes, saddam dead!

1.30am
how's it hanging, saddam?
HUR HUR HUR
OMG SO FARNIE

i'm signing up for a new game

1.12pm
i think it might even be better than wow

that's it

Saturday, December 30, 2006

6.52pm
well, now.
this just about seals the deal. i'll be getting a DS for sure.

tentative plan: complete ff12 by PoP, buy a DS.
not much of a plan.

returned home to find a bunch of stuff to read lying around the house. tuesdays with morrie and the 5 pple you meet in heaven. a pair of neil gaiman books. teh final book in the bartimaeus trilogy, which i have somehow followed. i'll bring them in with me but i doubt there'll be much time to read.

FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND?

Friday, December 29, 2006

8.00pm
having an OC as a commando is

i couldn't complete the sentence.

8.07pm
ninja company deserves its reputation. and nothing huge has happened yet. as our OC puts it, this is still the honeymoon week. his hands are tied. UNDERSTAND.

today book out. out for five days. five FUCKING DAYS ZOMG
i'm seriously coming to realise all the little things i value, thanks to army life. being alone, for one. in bmtc, solitude is something you have to cultivate on the inside.

"regimentalisation", as the army propagandists put it, is the single utmost infurating thing that i cannot stand. more specifically, i can't stand 19-year old fuckers bossing me around. really. when our commando red-beret OC tells us to knock it down, well fine, i'll do it. my knees will hit the ground after 20 pushups or so, but i'll still go down willingly. he's got an aura. he's got presence. he looks chubby but i know he could beat me to shit in any number of ways if he was so inclined. but when some fucking 19yo idiot with a whiny voice and a fucked up attitude tries to pull that sort of shit.... no thanks. so, OCS? or SISPEC? do i give a shit? no, because you're still barely a year older than me, you fucking fuckshits.
but.
tahan. endure. don't get guard duty.
i play a simple game where i imagine i'm shouting vulgarities at them when i answer YES SIR and shit like that.

oh. here's an astute observation by Rec Lawrence Koh, my bunkmate and assigned buddy. "all the malay sergeants are fuckers. no coincidence."
not to be racist... ok, i guess it's racist. but seriously.

for AGR (ability group run), i was placed in the elite Delta force, the powerhouse group that managed to get astoundingly higher timings in 2.4 than puny groups A, B or C. 17 minutes ftw!
as we're going round the parade square, of course people will start to fall out. the crazy malay fucker who's leading us in the run turns around and starts running backwards. he waves his hand and points to the place where all the excused noobs are slacking. "ok fuck off now. go." the recruit tries to explain why. "just fuck off. i don't want to see your fucking face here. GO."
other examples that i don't feel like listing. platoon 2 is seriously suay though. being called "motherfucking cheebai"s at least once a day is sad.

of course, not to say the chinese sergeants are any nicer. quote from one, "do you want to go OCS?" (recruit's answer: no) "good, because you don't fucking deserve it"

also, being from RJ has its perks.
"who here is from RJ?"
*a couple of us raise our hands*
"knock it down 20"
*20 pushups later*
"who knows sergeant soh wei jie?"
*charles raises his hand*
"carry on another 20"
*20 pushups later*
"any idea why you're getting pumped?"
charles: "no sergeant!"
"its a christmas gift from sergeant soh"

also, i'm the only RJ guy in AGR group D. extra fun too!

ah, so much to blog.
no anime/manga is killing me. i got back today and reread all of 8 volumes of tenjo tenge. i'm planning to reread recca, at least hte first arc, and also HxH if i can. oh fuck, i just remembered zwei 2 might be out

youtube pulled up no results, so probably not.

ah, nevermind. back to relaxing. i'm getting fitter, i think. i've put on weight though, half a kg. damn fattening army food.

CHAO RECRUIT

Monday, December 25, 2006

12.16am
hihi, yadda yadda yadda, out of army, i'll spare you the details. i don't even get a full 24 hours for this christmas break so i'm going to make good use of it. NINE DAYS of absolutely notHing!!!! at!!!!! all!!!!!!!!!

i'm in ninja company. apparently it's famous for being fucking siong. thanks, i didn't know that. seriously, the reputation is true. the last three days before bookout had a 3km route march, then the next day we had ippt test (failed... 2.4 17minutes! i improved sia!) and a first aid test in helmet and lbv, and another AGR... of another 2km? and then today we had a 3km route march in lbv helmet and a dummy rifle, and if our OC, who's a commando, hears us dragging our boots at any point, it's another round or so around the company cluster. we're not allowed to lie down after reverie, which is absofucking lutely stupid.

hint: if you're in RJ, you'll get a leadership position. i'm lucky enough to have a couple of RJ pple in my section, including charles and lawrence and GENESIS!!!! (what a name) because we're all feb babies, and not coincidentally, all four of us are ICs. parade stick ic, armskote ic, section+platoon ic, and i'm the ic of the annex room. lol. sounds easy but i've got no people to be In Charge of, so i clean the entire fucking room myself, with the fucking cabinets and fucking huge ping pong table (that people use without permission and thus get me screwed) and the fucking sofas and the five fucking windows (10 windowsills) and nine trophies with fucking nooks and crannies and arrange the board game pieces that the fuckers mess up while they're taking out the ping pong rackets and GET FUCKED EVERY TIME because there's something i always miss. there's a broken sofa there that i got fucked for, but it was broken when we got there. the sergeant didn't believe me. i had to report it to the sergeant in charge of damages, and the told me fuck off because i interrupted his winning eleven game with the other sergeants. oh, goh yi han is also in the platoon, he's toilet IC. have to respect someone with that job. he gets six helpers tho. sigh.

pehpeh and yuancai are across the block in FUCKING SLACK Orion company. fuck.

on the first night i had a dream. some naked skinny white guys were being chased by dobermans, which were being chased by bulldogs in turn. the bulldogs caught the dobermans and ripped them to shreds. in fucking detail. i've come to realise my dreams move really fast because i just dream ideas instead of actually dreaming a visual scene that i have to interpret... or whatever. this time i had to watch doberman heads meticulously split open and blood and brains flying everywhere in minute detail.
anyway. is my subconsious telling me something?
in any case, the dreams on following days were decidedly of a different nature, because i didn't do anytHing for so many days.

Purple Lights is my fucking favourite army song. first time i heard it i'd never heard the lyrics before, and i actually teared at the last stanza. so simple! yet so moving! righto.

sleeping at twotwothreezero and waking up at zerofivezerozero is taking its toll on my. i feel sleepy NOW. this is so wrong. then again, waking up at 5 to do shit sounds pretty fun too. ah, whatever. live in the present. just a few days ago JC life was starting, army will be over soon too.

late late late

Thursday, December 14, 2006

12.56am
lol, read today's life!. amazingly both garfield and snoopy managed some smidgens of funny. ong sor fen was at an amazing pinnacle of whiny bitchiness in the movie reviews section. unfortunately, she's right. at least about eragon. i read the book because i saw in on prominent display in australia ages ago and it was really crap as she said. written by a 16 year old kid? ... before i found that out i thought it was some failing middleaged fantasy writer targeting 11 year olds... but whatever.

tomorrow i will start packing for NS.

there's no fucking way i'm going to finish ff12.

that far back?

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

4.28pm
still tidying up my life (ie., computer) before i head to NS.
looking for stuff to delete. cleaned out my random download folder of all the little bits of stuff. deleted wow off my old computer. 6gigs of space, omfg. found this, circa Wednesday, December 22, 2004, 6:26pm.

i posted a couple moetan pages a really, really, really long time ago, then i lost the folder with all the pages. found it today. clicked on one, COMPLETELY RANDOMLY. the bottom entry on that page caught my eye. oh, wow.

yes.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

11.27pm
it's coming soon. NS, i mean, of course. two commas in a five word sentence... i'm babbling.

trying to get my shit in order before saturday comes.

my wow playing has stopped completely. since i started two years ago, the last few months have been the longest sustained burst of wow. and during my a levels, no less. wow sucks now because no one wants to do shit because the xpac is on hte horizon. i want to see the fucking instances and kill fucking bosses, even more than getting loot. pvp sucks, because even though blizz changed the pvp system, it's still humongous grind. for gear that will be replaced in a month and five days. i've cancelled my account. it will run out sometime in the first few days of january. seeing how i'll only have the weekends off... i guess this is it. i used to think of it as a dollar a day, but now it's seven dolloars for two days. goodbye wow.

anime... i'll never leave that behind, lol. mai-otome zwei is starting. gantz is starting again. i'm furiously reading thru 8 volumes of eyeshield21 but it's taking time. almost as long as the early HxH volumes, that's great. bleach is weak and pitiful right now so... two years should be enough for a decent story to have built up. or for it to die. and then maybe kubotite can start zombie powder again? just stop the watered down crap plz =_=
i'm not watching anything now, so that's fine. big names, death note and kanon, didn't touch those lol. rozen maiden 3 isnt close. last thing i watched was all of dual!, on youtube (search 'PDA 1'... there's some dude uploading a shitload of stuff under different names to avoid getting banned). nostalgia, hmm.

games and anime. i'm blogging about preparing myself for NS and that's all i can talk about. says a lot.

rushing thru ff12. wonder if i can actually cover all the ground. probably i'll just head for the storyline bits. just realised i haven't blogged about ff12 yet. gambits are fun, to an extent. everything can go smoothly for ages and i just need to control the left analog to move around (leaving me with the other hand free for... stuff..) but then something craps up and manual input sucks at max battle speed and the gambits try to work themselves. also, i keep trying to set up a tank system like wow, which works with varying degrees of success. the problem lies with the fact that the most effective taunt is a spell, not an ability, so i have to waste cast time and MP only to have the spell MISS. and when it lands, it only lasts for a bloody short time. on the other hand, the lure effect is 100% effective and shield blocking is complete damage evasion. its fun to have 10 seconds of mayhem as a powerful enemy rips thru my party while i attempt to set up the Decoy and try to lay down Blind status, while healing thru the damage, and then have a 4 minute fight where only one person gets attacked, and blocks every fucking attack for the whole 4 minutes.
yeah anyway. ignore that boring shittalk.

NS is bloody soon. i havent packed yet. i've got plastic specs made, tho the seriously make my eyes hurt with strain for some bloody unknown reason. and they hug the sides of my head with the most uncomfortable feeling. the feeling of PLASTIC.
for some reason my mother wanted me to exercise a bit before NS so i wouldn't go in and DIE. but, BUT, hello i am going in because i am unfit. one extra month of my fucking LIFE is gone to pure physical training. so i am going to slouch around like a completely debauched degenerate.

it's 12.16am right now, fourty minutes and a different day from the time i started typing. easily distracted. 4chan's to blame. will i miss 4chan? fuck no.
i have half a mind to just press that little X of this page and trash this whole entry. so.. ready or not, whatever.. i'll click publish now before that happens.

morp

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

1.02pm
back from prom night+stayover at the hotel. i'd like to say it was a stunning conclusion to two wonderful years of JC life, but it wasn't.
and they weren't.

THERE IS A RAPTOR

Monday, December 04, 2006

2.37am
i mean, cockroach, in my computer room. i moved back to the old computer for a break. or sorts.
back to the cockroach. it is huge. look at your little finger. yes, it's your 'little' finger, but imagine a big brown cockroach that size, shiny and glistening as its feelers stroke the air.

i was heating up some food a few days ago. as it was nuking in the oven i went back to the computer room. i'd used a fork to poke the food abit and i left it in the computer room. the microwave beeps, i head back out, to realise that i'd left to fork behind. so i go back to the comp room to find a SPAWN OF HELL nibbling on the tines. WTFUCK. EW.

so i kinda forgot about it. today i brought some chips in, and it must have smelled them cuz it appearked again. out of nowhere. ON MY FUCKING KEYBOARD. the little fucker is fast. i chased him around halfheartedly with a tissue in my hand but i chickened out. seriously, it's huge. did i mention its feelers are as long as its body? its huge.

fuck this shit, i'm wide awake again. i can't find bug spray anywhere. it dissappeared BEHIND THE COMP into the primeval mess of wires that holds my computer together. i'm going to my room. my eyes still hurt.

i caught up with the bleach i hadn't read in some time. it's gone to shit. sigh.

i'm going blind

12.21pm
...and not from ..you know.

14 hour computer sessions are doing it. there's a dull ache in my eyeballs that won't go away. i get a headache when i sleep. WHEN I SLEEP.

263+ chapters of hellblazer to go

i wonder if staring at the tv is better than the comp monitor
ah whatever

killed anub'rekhan today lol
in the past week i've gone from MC on semi-farm to experiencing one-night BWL and MC and a big chunk of aq40 and one naxx boss. i feel cheap. cheated some how.
ROUND TABLE is a cool band. need to watch more nhk. this entry will stop now cuz i think i wont be able to hold on to coherent thought for much longer

oh, i watched mythbusters today. been some time since i watched tv. i'm scared of balloons. i remember watching.. fear factor i think it was, they gave people on the street a pair of goggles and a rubber kitchen glove, you won cash or something if you could inflate the glove with your mouth and make it pop. it was hideous. hideous.

just stoppp

Saturday, December 02, 2006

4.12am
two hours ago i was a little sleepy
i was planning to go to sleep
somehow i didnt
now i'm not sleepy but fucking tired
this is not a poem
what to do what to do.. i'll go read a book.

wut wut wut time is it

2.44am
body rythmn is on track to be royally screwed again. awake till 5am -> sleep till noon, rinse, repeat.

in the ouran OST there's three files labelled 'pod cast', and involve nothing but sakamoto maaya chatting with the other voice actors. 107mb of pure audio. i'm listening to it all. in a language i do not understand. i'd like to say that i'm officially a freak now, but i'm sure there's been no doubt about that for some time already.

well i have to satisfy myself with that since none of the bloody songs are sung by her.
also, 1.2gig discography here i come

oh wow

Friday, December 01, 2006

2.25am
>_>
<_<
>_<
coincidence of coincidences, my guild's started joint runs with Bushido because we both can't make the numbers at raidtime. in anycase its raining purple for us.

i just heard a song from the ouran ost over winamp radio. >_> i'm going to download all the osts now. it was mitsukuni character song, didn't expect something so polished. i refuse to say his nickname. no one here has any idea what i'm saying. you're all useless.

also, if anyone has Pride by can/goo send it my way if you please. the song was released along with their single for the sensei no ojikan OP.. oh wtf. i forgot, you're all useless.

all the songs i'm ripping keep dissappearing. i keep them on my desktop in a single folder so... either someone is deleting them or the streamripper program put in some auto-delete. is that even possible?

15 more days to NS.
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2.36am
it also entirely slipped my fucking mind that maaya sakamoto was the lead voice actress. this ought to be good.